sip! diperiksa di polda for 5 freakin' hours! the longest running questions i've ever had. pulang, rasanya wasted gila2an. makan ama anak2, then went straigt to work. interview shaggy dog aja dulu. with shakin' hands krn baru makan jam 4, gw ketemu mereka and said sorry if i'm gonna throw them low quality questions. i had enough with questions today. not long, hagi started to play musik2 beheula. definitely sounds form the 80s. padahal kemaren udah cukup gila dengan musik ajep2, pemanasan buat polda hari ini. si tju pake kluarin subwoofer dari kantor pak bas. goyang otak ampe pol bo!!! tp dengan sore yang dihujani lagu2 macam crowded house, sinead o'connor, tommy page, lisa loeb, ampe take a bow-nya madonna. i have no idea what's on his mind. hehehe maybe we should hit the karaoke place after this! finally finished my review on pretty girls make graves, only to find out in the end, klo kemungkinan besar shaggy dog yang dimasukin. kacau!!! ++ the last sms i sent to ari was only to let him know when i was done with the cops, how tired i am today, and what i've been doing for the last 2 hours. nothing more. nothing less. all of a sudden, after two days of chaotic times, i somehow lost something with him. have no idea whether he still feels the same for me or not. especially after viewed his page on fs yesterday. i lost it. i lost it, since the fact coming back to me again. i own nothing on everything he have given me until today. it's not mine. it's not real. it'll fade away sooner than i think. just preparing myself, i guess. it hurts, but i do feel empty already. weird, but it's true.

i started to love him, even though i tried so hard not to. after everything i've been thru, i dont have the will to fall again, and no guts to even let myself fall.
browsed their fs just now. their pics shows how hard they've maintain what they have, and surely shows how much they cherrishes each other. and it would be big mistake to let myself in. i felt sad, dissapointed with myself, foolish, and happy at the same time just looking at them smiling together.

what am i, really? cant i get myself what is mine? is it all my fault? should i end it now (for sure, i should). but to whom will i turn to? i feel as if i've been given a feeling that teach me again to feel blessed and loved, only to find out in the end, that it's not actually mine to have.

i started to love him, even though i tried so hard not to. after everything i've been thru, i dont have the will to fall again, and no guts to even let myself fall.
browsed their fs just now. their pics shows how hard they've maintain what they have, and surely shows how much they cherrishes each other. and it would be big mistake to let myself in. i felt sad, dissapointed with myself, foolish, and happy at the same time just looking at them smiling together.

what am i, really? cant i get myself what is mine? is it all my fault? should i end it now (for sure, i should). but to whom will i turn to? i feel as if i've been given a feeling that teach me again to feel blessed and loved, only to find out in the end, that it's not actually mine to have.

i just cant seem to put words into this band's review. blank, stuck, going practically no where!! what sort of reporter am i? writer? oh dear, get your title checked!!

frankly, i like their music. i havent heard anything like it for a while. not a big fan of punk actually, but something about their music that feels familiar. it's genuine alright, but not really cliche kind of music. it's fresh.

who are they? introducing to this blog, and also my music mapping: pretty girls make graves. seattle band formed on 2001. still thinking what i'm gonna write, but listening to sondre lerche's new album instead.

oh yeah, i bought 'duper sessions,' today at aksara. had no intention to grab 'em, but i just cant resist the calling. it's there, it's good, strictly as if i cant fight the moonlight. so there i was. standing on the cashier booth, paying 190.000 rupiah for a piece of cd. but it's worth every penny i spent! well purchased!! yes!!! i score!

:: Hide and Seek // Imogen Heap ::

Where are we?
what the hell is going on?
the dust has only
just begun to fall
Crop circles in the carpet
Sinking feeling

Spin me round again
and rub my eyes
this can't be happening
when busy streets a mess with people
would stop to hold their heads heavy

Hide and seek
Trains and sewing machines
All those years
They were here first

oily marks appear on walls
where pleasure moments hung before
the takeover
the sweeping insensitivity
of this
still life

Hide and seek
trains and sewing machines (you won't catch me around here)
All those years
They were here first

mm what d'cha say?
mm that you only meant well, well of course you did
mm what d'cha say?
mm that it's all for the best, of course it is
mm what d'cha say?
hmmm that it's just what we need, you decided this?
ooh what d'cha say?
mmmm what did she say?

Ransom notes keep falling out your mouth
Mid sweet talk newspaper word cut outs (echo:paper word cut outs)
Speak no feeling no I don't believe you (no I don't believe you)
you don't care a bit
you don't care a bit

Ransom notes keep falling out your mouth
Mid sweet talk newspaper word cut outs
Have no feeling no I don't believe you
you don't care a bit
you don't care a bit

Hide and Seek

Oh no, You don't care a bit
Oh no, You don't care a bit
Oh no, You don't care a bit
You don't care a bit
You don't care a bit

ok fine, i just cant practically get this thing off my mind for days. wondering whether i've done the right thing, feel the right thing. i couldn't even dare to think that what's happening right now is real. it's seems so blur and undescribable. sometimes i think, it would be a big mistake to do so . the phrase is right, some things are better left unsaid. but the way it grows and grows, would it be another mistake to cherrish it for as long as i can?

FINALLY!!! HELL YEAH, I'M PROUD OF IT!! PLAYBOY HITS INDONESIA ON APRIL 7th, 2006. IT'S OFFICIAL ALRIGHT. ARRGGHH FINALLY!!!